Tarot Reading: “Past Life”
Deck: Druid Craft Tarot Deck
1. Basic Soul Nature/upon entering this life
You were one who would rather run than fight; you also had a tendency to back down or retreat when the going got rough, or the situation was more than you wanted to handle at the moment. This behavior may have been because you were all about being in control, and if you lost this position, in whatever circumstance, it made you feel uncomfortable and vulnerable. You had the spirit of the seeker, the sorceress, the magician, the healer; you held close with the magic of the earth and the spiritual practices of an ancient time.
Also……the ocean, or the seas, played a large part of your life, and you may have spent a great deal of time traveling by boat. You also kept a secret, something so significant that it often felt like an entity standing just behind your shoulder, it’s representative of being haunted by something or someone. (If you still have this feeling– ‘something’ there, something watching you, something behind you; this is where it’s coming from.)
Your background was such that money was an issue. I get the idea that poverty was an accepted way of life for you, maybe even desired. Your immediate surroundings were peaceful, meditative, and had an air of solitude and refinement about it. It was an atmosphere that was conducive to meditation and prayer. I believe that during a past life, at some point, you were living within a monastery or a convent.
Also……the communion chalice; autumn; baptism by the river; a long period of solitude (whether enforced or voluntary, I’m not sure); perhaps a long period of healing after an illness.
3. Early Years
Ace/pentacles…Princess/pentacles…The Hanged Man
Your childhood was one of comfort, possibly even wealth, but this came to an abrupt end, and I feel that this was a decision rather than through circumstances beyond your control– this is why I have the very strong feeling that you willingly sacrificed a comfortable life for the convent or monastery.
Also……the spiral (as a symbol, perhaps as an indication of time frame here. I have the feeling of transition from paganism to early Christianity.) Even in your childhood in this life, there is the feeling of deep thought and meditation, reflection, and a strong sense of spirituality.
You learned early on that you detest conflict, and you would go to great lengths to avoid it. This knowledge may have come from experience, experience in facing opposition to some of your life choices. These cards seem to reflect more of life’s education than any formal learning, as indicated by the second card of this set: verbal battles left you feeling defeated, depressed, and trapped; and this may still be a holdover in your present life. I have a feeling that you will go out of your way to avoid verbal confrontation; and this, too, is something that’s left over from previous life experience.
Also……once more, even with this set of cards, is the awareness that you feel haunted by something ‘behind you’, either literally as though something is physically close to you, bothering you in some way, or the feeling that you have to watch over your shoulder, including the ‘hair standing up on the back of your neck’ feeling. You may also feel ‘up in the air’ over something in your life, unable to come to a decision.
Your accomplishments in previous lives have to do with overcoming personal demons: you’ve had to learn to survive periods of depression and anxiety; you’ve had to learn to stop procrastinating and face issues and situations that needed your attention, things that you may not have wanted to deal with at all; you’ve learned to handle suffering and mourning with courage, and to come through the experiences as a stronger individual.
Also…the feeling of being chased (there it is again, the feeling of ‘something behind you’, whether literally being chased by something, or figuratively by something from your past, or your past lives.)
Your occupation in a previous life involved mental endeavors, study, and learning, the world of the scholar. It was also centered around the home, or a facsimile of such, as the convent or monastery would be, involving a tight-knit society, or group. At times, your occupation, or your quest for knowledge, experience, and answers led you to travel; this may well have also included journeys of the mind through meditation and deep thought.
Also…again, ‘autumn’ comes to mind (there must be some significance to you, this season, both in your past lives as well as your present); birth– perhaps this is the season of your birth, present or past, or someone who is significant to you was born during autumn.
7. Social Status
You were someone of high status in this past life, perhaps a Reverend Mother, or a Mother Superior, as this reading points so strongly to a religious spiritual life. You also held financial responsibilities within this position as well.
Within this realm, you were happy, content with yourself and your accomplishments, at peace with the world.
Also…birds were important to you and relevant somehow with your position– such as homing pigeons, carrier pigeons, or the hunting birds, like the falcon or a variety of hawk. One or more of these creatures may also be your totem animal in this, your present life.
At some point in your life, probably very early on, you were caught in a love triangle between two very powerful men. This led to some sort of disaster for you, figuratively as well as literally. This may have had something to do with your decision to devote your life to the spiritual world and divinity, to the contemplative life of the convent.
Also…the idea of a worn-out sense of loyalty (this idea is coming from the King of Cups), a sense of weariness connected to this King. The King of Swords has a completely different energy– virile, strong, verbally eloquent, high energy. What came to transpire between these two individuals in your past life was life altering for you, creating a chaos and disaster that you may not have healed from even within this life-time. If you feel uneasy about relationships in general, if you find it difficult to trust and you tend to take things more slowly than most, this is where it may all stem from.
9. Family Life
These cards seem to define and corroborate the previous cards– the three of swords is symbolic of a tragic love triangle. The World stating that this situation came full circle to a conclusion; and the six of wands suggesting that you came through this experience bruised but wiser.
Also…the four elements (earth, air, fire, water), and with these elements a sense of sexuality in it’s most pure form, chivalry, power and strength from a feminine perspective. In this past life, you appear to have suffered a blow to the heart which, as the previous cards stated, might effect how you form relationships in this life-time.
Your death in the past life most high-lighted within this reading appears to have been a very quiet solitary death at an advanced age for the time period it was (during the early years of Christianity). I feel that it involved a fever. I also get the impression from these cards that within one of your incarnations you were a male, but I don’t feel that you lived past childhood, dying as a young boy.
I feel that one other incarnation is revealed with these cards, and this is a young, very independent strong-willed pagan woman. Beautiful and free-spirited, with a strong bond to animals.
11 & 12. Lessons Learned
It’s all about relationships and learning to fit the pieces together in a constructive desirable way. It’s a matter of seeking your soul mate, and this may be a journey that will last through several lifetimes till you finally get it right. It’s about learning to balance being in control, and knowing when it’s okay to let go of the reins and let someone else take the lead.
It’s about learning to find balance in all areas of life, it’s about learning that extremes are never good, even if you think they might be at the time. It’s about learning to deal with adversity in a constructive manner, learning to be an optimist, learning to handle the mundane aspects of life with this same type of equilibrium.
13 & 14. How your past life affects your present life.
The High Priestess…The Moon…The Chariot
You tend to seek spirituality in this life-time, just as you did in past lives, though the journey may take you on totally different paths for each incarnation– it’s all about the journey, not the final destination. It’s about honesty, dealing with harsh realities, it’s about learning to follow your instincts, to rationalize the bumps in life, to recognize those people who are constructive to your life and those people who are destructive, and it’s about having the strength to weed them out.
It’s about not being afraid to try new things, to follow new roads, to seek new adventures.
It’s about learning from your past, not only past lives, but the past stemming from your present life. It’s about recognizing and acknowledging those people you’ve lost contact with, it’s about reopening communication.
It’s about learning to deal with male energy, both from past life experiences, as well as the present. It’s about learning to define positive aspects of the men in your life, about striving to develop positive relationships with a positive attitude. It still boils down to finding your soul-mate in the end. It seems to be a journey you’ve been on for quite some time. Along the way, it’s also been a spiritual quest, and a very successful one, it would seem.