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Tarot & Witchcraft ~ with author, Amythyst Raine

My Super Secret Revealed

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Oh my god, I’ve been hanging onto a Super Duper Secret for so long. It hasn’t been easy, and admittedly there are a very small handful of people (family and close friends) who may have been privy to bits and pieces. I was, however, quite proud of our ability to sit on our tongues for the most part, to not give out any details– even to them, to be able to draw ourselves up short. It wasn’t easy, believe me. It was enormous, this Secret, you’ve no idea!

The Super Duper Secret has sort of Come-&-Gone. It’s like one of those unfortunate 4th of July sparklers that looks incredible for about five seconds and then fizzles out to a nothing blackness as you hold it and watch in utter shocked dismay. That’s the way of this Super Duper Secret. The fizzling out isn’t something that we thought of, not something that we imagined. It was too promising. It was so highly praised by those professionals involved, those who got a chance to work on it, or view it during the creation process. It had “Success” written all over it; it sparkled and glowed with prideful star-shine; it bounced around like a beautifully wrapped sun-beaming present just waiting to be opened.

And then suddenly, unexpectedly, in one fell swoop, in one executive meeting, in one unexplainable moment, it was shot out of the sky. And there it was, laying before us on the ground, like the bloody carcass of a turtle-dove, perfectly still at our feet, bleeding out. All life, all promise, all hope…dead. All future plans, dreams, and visions washed away along with the lifeblood of this Super Secret Project.

What was this Super Secret Project? (You ask)…Even now, after everything that has transpired, sometimes it seems like some sort of bizarre dream that never really happened. But in fact, it wasn’t a dream, it was very real. It was amazing! It was fun, it was unique, it opened avenues before us that we never expected to travel and brought into focus possibilities that had once been out of reach. It also brought a group of amazing, super talented, creative, big-hearted, beautiful, lovable people into our life. It created a magickal summer; a summer with memories that will be carried with me and my family forever. It will fondly be remembered as the summer The Crew was here.

What was this Super Secret Project? (You ask)…Even now, I can’t be specific. I still reside in a gray area beneath a Cloak of Confidentiality. I still must watch my tongue, ironically enough, even though the dream has died. I still must be discreet, yet I can also be generalized and broad and humdrum. I will not be naming names of companies or people involved in this project. I will be careful to protect the integrity of our working business relationship, as well as our personal friendships.  I was hoping to reveal this Super Secret Project in a glaring haze of wild anticipation, but that was not meant to be– This Time.

What was this Super Secret Project (You ask)…I still can hardly believe it as I type it, so I don’t blame you if you don’t (believe it, that is)– last summer my family and I shot a pilot for a television show with The Crew of a highly respected and acclaimed Production Company for a National Television Network. It sounds so grand, I know, and ridiculous, and unreal, and Bigger-Than-Life. And it was (all of those things). It was going so well. It was going to be aired as a single episode, with everyone being very hopeful that it would “go-to-series”. And if this had been the case, it would have been Life-Changing for me and my family.

However, this isn’t how it turned out.

The Network dropped the show, dropped it unexpectedly, dropped it just days before it was to air, dropped it for what reason I don’t know and probably never will. I’ve been told that this happens all the time, pilots are dropped inexplicably. But I think it’s different when it happens to you, when it’s your show. There’s too much at stake, too much invested (thousands of dollars to the attorney who worked on my contract), emotions, energy, just too much of everything to shrug it off casually, without a flicker of sadness and regret.

But it is what it is, and we can’t change that.

In spite of all the drama and disappointment–

Creating this show was an incredible experience. It was an amazing process, and my family and I want to thank The Crew for showing us that we are capable of Doing and Being so much more than we thought. We loved working with you. We hate the fact that you won’t be returning, and we won’t have an opportunity to continue working with you; but we’ll be with you in spirit on your Grand Adventures.

To the Producers & Directors & The Crew, Thank you for giving us an extraordinarily magickal summer!

Watching TV is so different for me now. I can’t watch two minutes of a camera scanning a scene without thinking about the crew members and how incredibly hard they work. Most people will never know how much time and effort, how much blood-sweat-& tears goes into producing a 60 minute television show. It’s a test in stamina.

Love ya’, Alls!

Amythyst

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Author: Amythyst Raine

Witchy, Pagan, Personal Stuff Amythyst Raine is an author; a professional tarot reader; the mother to 7 magickal individuals; a major procrastinator; Crazy-Cat-Lady; and chocoholic. She writes books on witchcraft, the tarot, and Feminine Spirituality (published by Labyrinth House, Moon Books, and Dodona Books). She's an avid blogger; a pagan activist; a holistic healer through crystals and stones-- by means of crystal grids and chakra balancing. Amythyst offers Spiritual Psychic Consultations using tarot cards and the art of intuitive reading. If you'd like a personal reading with her, visit her tarot website at: http://tarotreadingswithamythystraine.blogspot.com "Every Cat Has a Tale" is her Personal-Blog-Spot, which includes everyday life and its dilemmas, as well as victories, memoirs, opinions, along with inspiration for mundane life, with personal photos and videos. http://everycathasatale.blogspot.com "Magickal Connections" is her witchy, pagan, booky BlogSpot. http://wytchymystique.com "The Witch's Corner" is her very popular witchy pagan website full of witchy pagan stuff. http://amythystraine.blogspot.com

9 thoughts on “My Super Secret Revealed

  1. I remember you telling me about this a few months back. I am so sorry it was dropped……….makes no sense 😦 , Head up as I know you will! I was so hoping you were going to say it’s will air on>………….., but there may be a next time you never know.

    • Thank you so much! You are so right about never knowing– if you would have told me two years ago we’d be filming a television pilot at all, I would’ve laughed at you. Hopefully, if it’s meant to be, it will manifest…and thank you for your friendship.

  2. Wow – what a story! Don’t understand why they dropped it though……..you are a great writer, listener and have so much talent……..I still don’t understand !! But if the experience alone helped you, at least you recvd’ some gain!

  3. Wow!! With all that experience – just make your OWN show and upload it on your YouTube channel, right? Go Amythyst!! 🙂

    • Oh, my!– my piddly little YouTube videos can in no way begin to compare to a professionally produced television show (or series). Not at all. But you’re sweet for suggesting it! (And payday at Youtube? lol– no comparison on this horizon either.)

      • Well, there is being (ahem) creative – start retagging your videos with all these new keywords, right? 😉 Hit the top of search engines, you never know what can happen! An external micand a tripod is the best thing to have other than your iPhone camera and editing apps before you upgrade to other things. Wehew!

  4. @Lisa…You are persistent!! The video retagging might be a good idea (you mean like #Fox #TLC #Lifetime #LMN #CBS #NBC #ABC, etc.) 🙂 I guess I’m looking at things a bit differently and it’s kind of strange. For about the past three years or so, I’ve had these people reaching out and contacting me (a variety of casting directors & production companies, before this one found me); I wasn’t actively seeking this out. I think the circumstances and the concept for another project would have to be very unique to me (and our family); it would have to be a natural fit for anything to fall into place. When you sign that contract, it’s a big commitment.

  5. Darling girl, I was SO hopeful, as you know. I still have not given up hope. I like the youtube idea but still, you need to be a televised series!

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