Sabotaging Yourself ~ Your saving grace comes in the guise of a Queen

Someone has a desire, a wish, that is at the heart of all they do and think about and probably plan for.  The thing is, they might be sabotaging themselves, foiling their own plans and future.  How?…”Why” might be kind of interesting here as well.

Here’s what the cards are going to tell us…

From here on out, I’m going to speak directly to the person this reading is intended for, so I’ll be using the pronouns that point in that direction.  If this is NOT a reading that is connecting with you, disregard the personal pronouns, but think about the people you know and if this reading could pertain to one of them. 

You aren’t going to be going anywhere, or getting nowhere, either or both.  You will be feeling the frustration over your lack of progress, and the reason for this lack of progress may be the fact that you’re trying to keep someone in the dark.  This gives the impression of a person working toward a goal, but keeping it a secret, or at least secret from certain people.

The energy is filled with the idea that you’re hiding something from someone.

This makes for a very tense atmosphere, because keeping secrets or ulterior motives unrecognized takes a lot of energy.  You always have to be on your guard so you don’t slip up.  This may also be giving you what appears to others as a very defensive attitude.  (There’s part of you that must realize this defensiveness is a childlike response to doing something you know you shouldn’t be doing, or doing something that you’re pretty sure most of the people in your life would disapprove of…  This is called a “conscience”, by the way, but it’s masquerading for now as defensiveness.)

The phrase “wish upon a star” came to my mind.  But it lacked the whimsical fairy tale energy usually associated with it.  Instead came the idea that something will need to be sacrificed if you want to get what it is you desire.  My first response was a shudder:  what are you willing to sacrifice?  who or what will it hurt, if anyone?  and what will the lasting ramifications have on you?

There is a saving grace to this scenario and this reading.

This saving grace is an individual.  It’s represented by the Queen of pentacles, and my first impression is a female, of course.  She’s quiet and wise.  She’s nurturing and grounded and exudes a certain calmness.  She also doesn’t suffer fools and will be the first to tell someone if they’re doing something that is not a good idea.  Okay, I’m mincing words… she will not hesitate to tell you when you’re being stupid, and she doesn’t care what kind of response you give her, she’ll tell you anyway.

She’s your saving grace.

You can be upset with her for being honest and somewhat blunt, but don’t dismiss what she says.  If you do, you won’t get anywhere (the reversed chariot); and you’ll find yourself trying in vain to explain yourself (7 of wands); and you’ll discover that there is someone who can uncover your secret or figure out your motives after all (the reversed High Priestess).

This Queen is your saving grace, know that and respect it, because the universe is not giving you a second chance here.

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